Friday, August 26, 2011
Why I write
Why do I write? I ask myself that every time i pick up a pencil, and still I haven't a clue to what that answer. Every time I think about it, I seem to come up with a different answer. Once I tried to tell myself i write because I am told to write. Soon After I realized that it was the complete opposite of why i write. Both my sisters are brilliant writers and I contemplated for a minute that I write to keep up with the pressure they put on me. Although I soon realized I write for myself, I am always Jealous of the grace and beauty that ends up on their papers. writing doesn't come easy for me, it seems so hard to make my thoughts translated on a blank piece of paper. I hope yo accomplish so much with my writing that i fail half of the time. When I get that paper back I think to myself why do i even try? Subsequently i remember that I write for me and only me. It gives me a time where i hold nothing back and spill my guts without the worrisome of others. Writing is my escape of reality. Although I have not come to the conclusion of why I write, I search for that answer every time I pick up a pencil
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I think you're so lucky to have siblings who share a love of writing. And I totally understand what you mean about being jealous of how beautifully they may write, but I think every writer too often thinks everyone else is better than they are. It's part of being human. It's inspiring to see you're strong enough to identify that you only ever have to write for you.
ReplyDeleteTo continually search for meaning is commendable, especially in the face of perceived failure. But how incredible it is to continue to try. Isn't that successful in itself? Write on, darling!
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